Everything is alright if I just breathe

Public transport went awry today.

I got on the correct train &

then @ Roma St, they announced they

were changing it to an express. WOAH!

I got off in time - if I had stayed on that train

I would have been six stations away from where I'd want to be.

Anyway - I then got a train that wasn't an express

& finally got home.

I've got it planned for tomorrow.

I'm not going all the way home @ least.

We're heading to Daniel's (Amber's brother) for dinner.

So that's several stops I'll avoid & 

because I'm letting Amber drive my car.

I'll get to drive home.

I love being in my car - 

it is killing me a little that @ the end of the day

I don't escape into my Morgy!

Still - I don't mind the train.

Except when people have really bad B.O!

Seriously people, do something about that.

x 

Or I can break & take it with a smile

Okay I am just throwing this out there,

DO NOT in any way - get the Simpsons Season 11 dvd

at least until you've read the following.

So I've waited a couple of months for the dvd.

It's been out for a while & yesterday I decided

to spoil myself - I mean why the hell not?

I never buy anything for myself.

So I get the dvd, I've had an okay day shopping

& I'm finally home & want to enjoy the episodes.

Open the packaging to find that it's nothing like

the previous seasons & I love the earlier packaging.

Okay - so it's a bit different, no harm right.

Getting the DVDs out was a whole other matter.

It appears when you look @ the case that the DVD

can come out of either the left slit or the right slit.

The cardboard is so tight that it's really fucking hard

to get the DVDs out in a slow safe way.

Instead you pour fingerprints all over it

& risk scratching them just to get them out.

But then there's a little surprise...

They have for some dumb-fuck reason -

glue all over them???

Glue on my brand new DVDs? WTF.

There is no way that I've figured out to

get this glue off & as a result 

it has rendered disc two completely unplayable.

I googled the packaging to see if others

had the same trouble as me.

Sure enough - a lot of people have &

apparently JB Hi-FI (where I purchased it from)

had been warning people & gave them instructions on

how to remove the DVDs with a little more ease.

I wasn't instructed - I was told to have a nice day.

Perhaps with the instructions I would have actually had a nice day.

So today means returning the DVDs 

& I assume waiting till the packaging is improved.

Very disappointed.

My weekend hasn't turned out how I imagined it would.

So sometimes when these small things happen,

it's the very thing to push you over that line.

You know the line, between okay & not okay.

x

Edit. I went to JB Hi-Fi & the girl

there was so lovely. I didn't even have to explain

they already knew the situation she got me a replacement one

& checked the DVDs infront of me to make sure there was nothing

wrong with them. *smiles*

Thank you to kindness of others

x

Each second numbs the pain

I have sunken into a song 

but while it's easy to feed

off the sombre tone - 

there is an upbeat.

It actually is really quite nurturing,

like a warm hug.

Nothing compared to the hugs from my girl.

They are mine & I feel mine only.

The weekend is looming

& this one is especially special.

No real reason why - but I want it that badly.

I'm listening to music on iTunes.

It reminds me of when I would sit

in front of my stereo & blast my music up.

It just would help with however I was feeling @ the time.

After I outgrew my stereo I moved up w/ technology

& I would disappear for hours listening to music on Winamp

& eventually here I am with iTunes.

My point is music still makes up a huge part of me

& it's a fantastic way to deal with everything.

So if I'm in my car - I am ALWAYS singing to my iPod.

I feel a little relieved now actually,

thank you very much music.

x

They're gonna eat me alive

An improvement over years & 

a somewhat bold statement

left out in the open - dead air couldn't appreciate

before it was almost suddenly displaced.

No time to linger.

The wrong person to try to talk with.

There are not many people I can talk with.

I want to talk to my brother - 

no I just think I should want to.

I don't want to say a word to any person.

I secretly am hoping this is just 

from over-exaggerated levels of estrogen.

"Help, I'm alive"

There has to be something else.

Something to make the long days seem bearable.

There isn't - everything is just prolonged.

I think the start of my long week - 

Friday night late shopping in the city

I will visit JB HI FI

in the hopes they have

all the CDs I remember they used to have.

Spill Canvas, Metric.

I need these songs right fucking now.

I am just a girl who needs her music.

Without it - I feel exceptionally sad.

Miserable is not a good look.

"Help, I'm alive!"

1 2 3 4, tell me that you love me more

I am looking @ puppies!

To be precise, german shepherd puppies!

They are so adorable! *CUTE ALERT* lol

I want one - oh it'd be my bestest friend

& we'd go on a million adventures.

The dog, the girl & I!

Yes!

Well this week I'm hoping we get off to the movies.

Friday the 13th is coming out.

I enjoyed the classics, well a few of the classics

so I'm looking forward to seeing it

& picking up a chicken curry.

I am totally obsessed with chicken curry.

Shhh

I'm already in bed - 

I'm feeling a little better about things lately.

I'm not sure why - I think because I don't feel stuck.

I had some looks @ some other jobs 

& I didn't feel bad about it.

it's nice to be in a comfortable position

to check out other opportunities, you know.

Today was spent day dreaming about what

one would do with $95 million dollars.

It's an extravagant amount of money - 

the amount pretty unnecessary although

it was today's topic of conversation.

I didn't stray from my usual wants.

Get a house - get the best 5 door black Yaris

& quit my job & get a puppy!! 

I have reachable wants really,

with money I could have them straight away.

I'm off to cuddle the girl.

Lame I know.

Oh before I go,

Feist's 1 2 3 4 puts me in the

best mood ever! Remember that.

x

I hate to be the one with the least amount of control

I wish I had more to say.

I have felt pretty lonely lately.

At work I find myself scribbling out things like,

"Maybe if I look happy, I'll fool everyone".

Post-its come in very handy for things like that.

Other than little writings, I draw myself

with about as much expression as Daria (MTV).

I hope you know the 'look' I'm talking about.

Each day seems to feel longer & longer

& that will literally be the case in another week.

There's really not much I feel I can do.

I want to buy some CD's.

I think I might do that today. Why not?

I need my music this weekend.

x

Someone turn off the mute, can you hear me screaming?

Aaaaargh!

Colourfully referred to as frustration.

There is one day till Friday.

A weekend will sure work nicely

but even that is not enough.

A weekend is only two days 

& a full working week comprises of 5 days.

5 long, arduous, unhappy days.

Sigh

x