The rest of the ride is riding on you

I have encountered a seven letter word

that seems to be running my life for me.

I don't feel connected to this word whatsoever 

& I have done all in my power to stay far away from it.

Alas - it is consuming me whole & I hate it.

I hate everything about life right now.

What's the point in living?

I want a bedroom w/ familiar things.

I am not the sleeping on other people's floors type girl.

I need a home.

I need to forgive her because I don't

want to stay mad at her for much longer.

It hurts.

x